Sunday, July 7, 2013

Four

Today my baby girl is four years old. Not a baby anymore, but I always think of her as my baby girl. I'm not quite sure how it's been four years already. And also, I'm not quite sure how it's only been four years. Sometimes I find it hard to remember who I was before her. I don't think it's anything worth remembering. I wasn't a very happy person and I hadn't done much with my life. But then, four years ago, I first met my baby, and I fell deeply and irrevocably in love.

I became a different person that day, in that moment. My heart grew and changed I hardly knew myself, and it was a good thing. I haven't gone back. Being first Roo's mother and then her birth mother has made me a better woman. She saved me. I owe her so much!

I am the woman I am today because I love this little girl. Every good decision I make, every right and good and kind thing I do, it's all because of her.  I want her to be proud of me. I want to be someone she can look up to. I'm not there yet, but she inspires me to try.

I know that I'm pretty selfish with details about her. But she really is the most fantastic little person I have ever known. She is so smart, and so happy, and so sweet, and exceptionally cute. She talks constantly, and she's an excellent reader. She has a lot of confidence for such a small person. I love her like crazy, and I am more proud of her than I can say.

Happy birthday, Roo!

3 comments:

Ashley said...

Happy birthday Roo!

And you're pretty amazing. I know with Carri, Julia is so proud of her and loves her deeply. I can only imagine how Roo feels about being loved by you. It's such an honor to have someone that amazing loving your child.

Unknown said...

You're amazing Jill! Happy birthday to your precious Roo!

Corrine Christian said...

you are truly awesome and MAN- does time fly so quickly! I met you less than a year after you placed at the National conference- PS you look fabulous!